Th3 Fr0z3N D3sTinY

Assalamualaikum……….

Once again..i’m about to blabbered about my life..erm..aku leh cakap hidup aku agak hectic sepanjang minggu ni bermula dari hari isnin yg lepas..but that monday really buat aku rasa aku dah mati balik sekali lagi..jantung aku terhenti seketika masa bawak van..selamat tak mampos langar tembok umah org..erm..my worst nightmare happen again..bayang-bayang seseorang muncul tanpa aku duga or bersedia..hati aku hancur sekali lagi..harapan aku yg mula aku bina kembali ibarat habis di musnah arus ombak..sekelip mata..habis camtu..erm..

Aku pun tak tau kemana arus kehidupan aku akan bawak aku..bila aku rasa benda nak ok..aderk jer halangan..ujian yang datang..tak ubah cam keadaan aku di johor ni dah kat setahun..lagik 4 minggu aku dah nak naik melaka dah..sambung balik sem..but dalam keadaan camner aku akan aderk di sana?..Kesunyian ..keseorangan..atau aku akan di temani si dia seperti dulu kala….i miss those time..i want those time back..can i get it back?..i really want it..just becouse of this one soul..my life became hectic..tak tentu arah..

I want happinese..bila rasa aku akan dapat?..raya tahun ni rasa cam sebelum ni gak..just a normal dull one..but aku takut raya kalo ni aku sakit..tak dapat nak rasai sikit pun kehangatan raya tu..atleast tahun lepas i got someone i can turn to..for this year..i hope..dia akan aderk tuk aku..sampai aku naik nanti………for some reason why..hard to imagine life without that person..missing that very soul every single day and night..and why did this all happen to me?….

I wish what ever that..that person told me last nite would always stay like that..i’m at lost of searching for energy to move…a normal single day seemingly to be very-very long and whining..entah camner aku nak tahan lagik 4 minggu sampai naik melaka ni..erm..miss u..need u..love u..want u..want to be on your shoulder once again..

take me by your hand..show me the world that once you’ve showed me..cheerish me with those love that u once cheerish me with..coz i’m lost with you..i’m lone with out..i’m in tears with out u…erm..aku cam leh buat sajak but tau takder bakat pun…..

My wish for today…i want to be happy..penat asyik moody..sedih..dan tertekan..i know someone who can make me one..and thanks for doing it dear..good luck for your exam..and always stay smile my gurl..always been loving u..hope u would wait for me then we can go out together again..just like how we wish..praying hard for those day to come..it’s like a nightmare thingking going back there without u by myside..enough with the whole 2 month nightmare..don’t wanna go through it again..just want to love you and cheerish you more..to give you the happinese and love that u want..love you…..take care

for all..selamat hari raya..mintak maaf kalo aderk tersilap kata-kata and mintak halal makan dan minum..have fun and jangan lupa diri bila raya..ingat kat ALLAH yerk..have a great time and good luck everyone……..

For that special someone….take care..mintak maaf zahir dan batin..took care of me so i can take all the sadness away..i’m hoping for it…….jaa’

Assalamualaikum

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