Th3 Fr0z3N D3sTinY

Today is monday..one more week to go and it is already raya..Doesn’t really felt the atmosphere of raya anymore..life have been preety rough for me to even thinkin of raya..sad isn’t it?

It’s been like three years we haven’t really celebrate raya coz of all the problems and down time we are suffering here..Every single one of us here are facing bad time..bad day..even bad dreams..

For me my self..time this raya would be one of the saddest raya i guess..coz there seems to be to much of losses that would just seems to make me watery when ever i think about raya and also thinking about things that i have lost..most precious one of course..But they say life must go on..so i just have to past through that day..But wouldn’t know how would i really turn out to be..ok or not..good or not..strong or not..But since this last weekend..it made me reallise again a lot of thing..about me..and also about others..selfishness..ego..anger..revenge..and also love..may be also "gila sex" for some "man" who doesn’t really know how to really appreciate women..I’ve been wondering..just becouse of this few sex maniac man..would just get into a relationship just to for sex..it had tarnished all of us other man..Actually..do we really need sex that bad?..I mean we do have the nature for it..but are we that desperate to have sex?…Do we really look for sex when ever we look at gurls?…..Something to think about u know..are u really that kind of person? Or are we that kind of person?..Erm..from my own personal opinion..women are not sex slave or any other kind of slave..they are meant to be cherished and care..just like our mother or maybe sister…If u felt inlove with somebody..please do remember this all of my kind..look into the heart..not from the shell it self..coz most gurl actually look us inside..not on outside..But there are some women and men whom always look on the outside only..Nature lah..But it is not that healty you see..For someone like me..I have always go through life by judging something from it’s inner..not from it’s outer shell..

Sex..sex..and sex..and currently i’m so worried about someone and hope she would not fall into victim of her boyfriend sex desire and lust..Think about it already make you scared..To think about it..for heaven sake..is women that cheap for a guy to always coupled..go out once..and already asked for this or that..go out twice..they upgraded their wish..go out thrice..they upgraded it even more.and until at one point of this..no more to upgrade..so..JUST DISCARD IT..it happen a lot nowdays..but there are still some women felt victim for it even though there are many example out there..The reason?..simple..some of this women would jut loved this guy their whole heart and just don’t want to loose this guy..they are willing to give anything to this person as long as this person love them and always stay by their side..STUPID..AND ALSO DUMB YET IDIOT..To all women and gurls out there..please take care of your cave from being visit by mister earl unless that earl already been given the proper right and authority for the cave…Please remember..we are Malaysian..not european or those kind of people whom run their life on open sex..Please remember gurls..you are just to precious..for some man i just donno..but for me whom really look high and treasure a relationship..just holding a hand of a women is already big enough..and it would take sometimes..coz time is needed for your heart to really grow fond and like on her..Worst come to worst lah kan..think lah..is it worth it for u just to give your self to someone whom you really known just for like what?..few days or month..not even a year..and you seldomly meet?…Think..Think..and Think ok…

I just donno wether i have the right to say all this thing..but i just felt wanna to right this blog since yesterday it self..for that someone..i really hope you take a good care of your self..coz u are just to precious and priceless to let a man get you just like that in a blink of an eye..Used your women insticnt to differentiate wether that man really2 love you..or just aftering you for your body and sex..think carefully..and watch your self out..There are lot of good man out there that would look you from inside..and care for you their whole heartly and not even for sex..Sex is actaully something sacred and should only be done if the most proper..good..and authorised way..mean..you already get the GREEN GO LIGHT legally and religiously..understand..coz when u do it without the GREEN GO LIGHT..believe me..your life wouldn’t be anymore happier..everything would just turn dark and you would felt as if your soul is now empty..nothing more inside..So please..as they say don’t drink and drive..please also..don’t be to pleased to let go of it and be at lost..The most stupid thing for a women is just to make them self look cheap..YOU choose to be cheap..NOT that we man choose for u..REMEMBER THAT…

I think that’s all lah for today..for some reason i donno while..i always felt lonely here..and also empty..maybe coz i lost LOVE..maybe..haaaaa……bila lah nak ada org ni yang leh isi kekosongan hati ni dan buat aku kembali berasa untung menyayangi seseorang kerana seseorang itu akan menyanyangi ku balik seperti mana aku menyanyangi nya..pernah aderk seseorang but dah hilang org…like my uncle say..u always need another women to fill in the whole left by another women..and from my own experiance..kalo aku duk kejar something camtu..aku takkan dapatnyer..selalunyer aku kena sabar sampai benda tu mai kat aku..and I MY SELF REALLY SUCKS WITH WAITING……arrrggghhhh..DEAR GOD..please..and please..take this pain away from me and please…make my HEART more stornger and tougher in going through this life facing all of YOUR challenges calmly..whole heartedly..and also taking everything that have happen calmly..Amin…..

Last but not least..my song for the moment..currently is LITHIUM..by Evanescence..

Take care people..selamat bercuti kepada mana yang nak bercuti dah ni..and selamat berbeli-beli..and bershopping2…cam jealous tengok semua org gi shopping..waaaaaaa….bila lah aku nak merasai kegembiraan menyambut raya kembali..really missed all those days…

Pengumuman tak rasmi..kepada sesaperk awek kat sana..yang pakai tudung..gemar berbaju kurung..tinggi didikan agama..sukakan budak kechik..aderk umah kampung ( sebab aku teringin nak raya kat kampung..bakar lemang..nyalakan pelita..gi terawih..) sweet..and sudi dengar lawak bodoh aku..and sudi gak melayan kerenah aku yang tak aperk2 and also lampi..and also paling penting..someone yang akan nilai aku darik dalam aku..bukan darik luaran aku..AKU BERMINAT…..hukhukhuk..cam desperate gila……( Aoineko…you seems to fit in all those spec..but..it’s sad..and u shoould know why )

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