Th3 Fr0z3N D3sTinY

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn’t stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can’t get near you now

Oh, can’t you see it baby
You’ve got me goin’ CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I’m with you
I’ll take the chance

Oh, can’t you see it baby
You’ve got me goin’ cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

p/s : This song is sang by Richard Mark..my all time favourite singer..I’ve been listening to this song since i can’t remember when?..Those time when i first heard n learn to sing this song is somewhere when i was like before kindergarden i think..i use to sing this song quitely that only my twin uncle would realise it n make me felt shy..It was the first song i ever loved n sing..The voice was so soothing yet the lyric i tak paham lah that time..

But now..i seems to understand the lyrics more..sad yet it resembles a lot of thing i know n facing..and i shall dedicate this song just for YOU …181

Some people may think i am crazy send all this blog on love song..sad one most of them..but what to do..i seems to backtrack my life to like how i was before…ohoho..but kalo rasa nyampah n tak suka nak tengok..jangan lah tengok..tul tak..

Once again..this lyric n song is especially for you…181…hope you would read it and understand it..

Christian Bautista

INTRO
No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

CHORUS
‘Cause there’s somethin’ in the way you look at me
It’s as if my heart knows you’re the missing piece
You made me believe that there’s nothing in this world I can’t be
I’d never know what you see
But there’s somethin’ in the way you look at me

If I could freeze some moment in my mind
The second that you touch your lips to mine
I’d like to stop the clock, make time stand still
‘Cause baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

(Repeat CHORUS)

BRIDGE
I dont know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens everytime

(Repeat CHORUS)

The way you look at me..

Dedicating this song just for you…only you

"Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)"

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I’m here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing’s quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had
You don’t want me back
You’re just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I’m just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had
You don’t need me back
You’re just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can’t take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You’re always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I’m here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I’m haunted

[Chorus]
But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had
I don’t want you back
You’re just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

*This is one of my most best and favourite song..always heard to it last time and until now..guess vertical horizon is still yet one of the best group ever right…ohohoho (oba-chan laugh style)

p/s…..good luck in your exam

The pain n burden that i’m shouldering currently is too heavy..It is so heavy that it’s left a scar on my shoulder. The pain seems to be eating every moment n second. Night have been sleepless n nightmare is always there to hunt me. You’re faces doesn’t seems to be fading away no matter what i do. It is painfull knowing that there are emptiness here inside of me. The hole is too deep n big that even light could not reach it’s bottom. Yet morning have been so painfull. A year have nearly gone but the restness of night seems not to be there. Once i could not keep this eye closed of all the burden that i’m carrying. Waking up seems to hard yet facing another day of life felt like a day nightmare. But now?…The pain came into the scene..Night have been worst then ever..I just could not find the strenght to wake up once i’m asleep. Burden added by loneliness n pain are so powerfull. No one should ever gone through this root that i’m going. Yet i try to stand still..pulling my self back knowing that there is a reason for the burden that i’m carrying. And i need to finish up carrying it till the end. The pain is there..always there..longing for something you have lost is painfull..something u treasure most all of this time. You’ve lost something you’ve protected all this while to the burden that you are shouldering. With big responsibilities comes big sacrifices. I’m forcing my self to faces the pain, ignoring it at certain period n accepting at certain period..The pain of loosing is still there as if with the love that doesn’t seems to be fading away.

I love you, more than even this heart know until it losses you. But yet u are someone else now..Love n misses can no longer being utter to you. I’m only whispering it to this lonely heart of mine. You have a life..u need to go forward. I’m just another backward. Uttering love n misses to you whom already someone else is a sin for me. I’m keeping it firmly day n night hoping i’ll have the strength n courage to face u n move on. DON’T uttered to me LOVE n MISSES when u are already someone else. It’s a venom for me. I’m keeping everything to my self now..but u are uttering those feeling to me even when u are someone else..why?..It’s is a venom that killing me slowly..Those word eat up this weak heart of mine bit by bit second by second. It is so painfull. Just move on with whom ever u are with now..left me behind..you are having a far more better n wonderfull lofe without me now..the most best thing for u..you can see me..talk to me..smile to me..but yet don’t ever uttered those venomess word to me when you are already someone else..it is so hard for this bleeding heart of mine to accept.Please………….it is so painfull just by being alone here taking up all this pressure n pain. A pain that u never seems to ever understand.

To love someone means to always wanting the best n happinese for them. But i don’t have the strenght to hear the uttering of misses n love from u anymore..you’ve move on with someone else n i’m here with this pain and responsibilities.

Hoping for the upmost best n good for you and your life. Anyone that get you should be lucky and me losing you should be at lost. But this is fate. Something that GOD had decided for his servent. Be happy n have a good n wonderfull life..Shall pray for your happiness n health…

hittokiri battousai_182

Sesaperk yang baca ni kalo rasa poyo n banggang..sukatilah yerk..tengah buat kerja..dan tetiba terasa datang type benda ni..well…my life n feeling seems to be backtracking at the past 2 years…who cares right..setiap orang aderk masalah masing-masing kan..hidup..erm…

jaa’ mata

"Blind"

I was young but I wasn’t naive
I watched helpless as she turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we’d be here
Never thought we’d be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we’d be here
Never thought we’d be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

p/s : untuk sesaperk baca blog aku ni..tolong lah pahami n hayati isi lirik ni…aku suka dengar lagu n tak sangka in the end..aku end up cam lagu ni..kesadisan dunia

didi-lapa seems to have open my eyes on what am i facing currently

WHEN U ARE SHOLDERING BIG RESPONSIBILITES…YOU ARE MEANT TO SACRIFICE SOME OF THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN YOUR LIFE…JUST LIKE MR. SPIDY N SUPERMAN

Erm…hidup aku dah berubah..dari sebuah kisah yang sedih sejak setahun ni, dah tukar jadik tragedi. Balik jb tinggal sorang dengan family, kawan semua study..but still ok thinking i got someone..but in the end. I was left all alone..dah dua minggu hati ni kosong. Jiwa ni pun mula rasa kosong. Perasaan cinta dan sayang yang dahulunya ada dalam hati ni menebal kini kian hilang. Perasaan pun mula kosong dan hilang. Sedih bila memikirkan dugaan demi dugaan yang terpaksa aku tempuhi dan hadapi. Mana aku nak carik kekuatan aku?..Si DIA telah pun mempunyai kebahagian barunya. Salah aku?..Mungkin..Salah dia..mungkin..but aku dah hilang banyak sangat benda yang berharg..paling berharga si DIA..kini semuanyer tinggal memori…memori yang manis dan bakal menjadik racun untuk hidup ku ini. Dimana aku nak carik kekuatan tuk teruskan hidup ni?…Aku mula rasa resah. Lemah longlai tak bermaya. Kekadang aku rasa baik dunia ni benci jerk aku..hilang darik pandangan semua. Mungkin cinta ku tidak cukup utuh. Mungkin masalah yang ada disini mula membebani hidup ku hingga aku hilang harta terpenting aku..DIA..

DIA kini gembira..bersama si dia yang mampu memberikan dia kebahagian yang tak mampu aku berikan. Seketika aku telah berikan segala-galanya untuk si DIA..tetapai..cuti ni mula membataskan semuanya sehinggalah aku kehilangan si DIA..Apakah lagi yang perlu aku lakukan. Dimanakah lagi perlu aku cari kekuatan untuk menghadap si DIA yang telah lepas dari genggaman ku?…Adakah segala pengorbanan dan kehilangan ku kini ada ertinya?..Ada kesudahan baik bagi nya…Aku sunyi…sunyi sepi …dah lama tak rasa camni..Ibarat hidup ku terhenti di awangan masa. Bagimu diriku sudah tiada lagi..sudah lesap dari pandangan mu. Tetapi bagiku..kenangan yang ada mula membunuh.

Perlukah aku sedih?..si DIA sudah bahagia bersama si dia yang mampu bahagiakan dia. Aku patut bersyukur kerana ada yang mampu gembirakan dia. Semuanyer salah aku. Terlalu sibuk dengan masalah ku disini hingga aku lalai akan mu..

Hopefully aku mampu berdiri tegak di depan pun mu..Melemparkan senyuman kepada mu setiap kali menatap wajah pun tanpa rasa sebak di hati ni..Aku telah kehilangan yang terbaik pernah aku ada. Terbaik pernah aku miliki. Dan yang terbaik yang mengajar ku tentang erti hidup ini yang sebenar..

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Blue October
Hate Me

Children: If you’re sleeping, are you dreaming, if you’re dreaming are you dreaming of me? I can’t believe YOU ACTUALLY MISS ME….

Mother: Hi Justin! This is your mother it is 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous, and a little, well it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous too. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too. You know I love ya. Take care honey, I know you’re under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye Bye!

(Verse 1)
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah in ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

(Verse 2)
I’m sober now for 3 whole months, it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I’ll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

(Verse 3)
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling make it go away,
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
For You
For You
For You

Children: If you’re sleeping, are you dreaming, if you’re dreaming are you dreaming of me. I can’t believe YOU ACTUALLY MISS ME….

Girl: Hey Justin! x12+

p/s : life doesn’t really seems very good to me nowdays. A lot have happen and also a lot i have lost. Big and small. Everything that i seems to have build n tressured are all lost away just like that. Do i have the strenght to stand again?..Do i ?..where would i ever find the strenght?..How i wish my old car was here with me to here all my problems. Carzy but true. If only i were given a wish, i wish that car was back to me. I wish i get back my lost life. My wasted life. Erm…life have begun to be so unpredictable. It was so sudden that everything happen. Strenght n power..erm..where can i search for it..if someone have ever seen the anime AIR..i want to be sora..i want to fly all over the world. Just being free from everything. But hey..burung pun aderk masalah sendirik aperk………………starting to developt harted on somthing this days..not a very good thing to do but it is happening..can some one or anyone save me?….i wish there was……