Th3 Fr0z3N D3sTinY

How long was it since i’ve updated my blog..Long isn’t it. Since then, a lot of thing have happen n a lot of story were writen in my very own diary of life which still freshly embeded wihthin my though. LIfe does take it change of way to present it self to me. Most of it left the aftertaste of sour yet bitter. Hardly remember the happinese of having something sweet yet warm.

Done with the intro i guess. Kalo aderk sesaperk yg notice aku cam hilang dari pandang or dari kaca monitor YM! anda, itu menandakan anda seorang yg prihatin. Kalo tak, tak lah ek!..If any of u yg aderk wandering where the hell did i go, i’ve actually been here only. Not hell or anything. Just back in my hometown. It should be like 8 month already since i’m here in my hometown. Having yet long n can say torture + experiance + Entah tak tau feeling n situation. Lama gak tu back. Hopefully Insya-ALLAH bye nov this yea i’ll be back.

How is my life here?. Errm…so many thing happens. A lot. Being for to indulge in the adult world does drive me nuts n crazy moment to moment even till now. Maybe coz i was not prepared but it happen so sudden out of the blue. The true picture n life line of certain adult world. Knowing who are really around u n their true picture. If life was always beautiful n perfect, it is not life at all. Even dreamland have it own nightmares. My nightmare of the real world had begun n still going on even to the very moment i’m typing each of the words right now. Nightmare which if u patiently face it u may grow stronger with permission from HIM…

This sem seems to be the sem where everyone from my batch are having their industrail training. I hope it is a fun n exciting experiance for u. Hope u all are doing well n great on it. For me, you can say i’ve been on my life n work practical since last nov. There are lot of pain n problem in life right now that i’m suffoucating almost every single day of my life. Joy n happinese does come but it was short n the pain that come aftermath is like 10x more than the joy it self. Is it worth it?…Someone told me there are also price u know u have to pay for happinese n it is sorrowness.

My love life?…Privacy i guess but things do have it ups n downs..hope she’s being patient with it n thanks to her for everything. It would be though on anyone. Hope we would grow stronger from all this..Everything happen for a reason they say. Hopefully it’s for the better of the reason.

Currently listening to hoobastank - if i were you n lifehouse - blind. Current favourite song, my chemical romance - ghost of you, blue october - hate me, evanescence - missing.

I think it’s about time for me to make a move now. For today, life have been very long for today till now it self. Things happen n not happy thou. Only sorrow seems to be filling up the air now..One thing for sure. Everything that had happen to me till now are mostly filled with misery, problem yet sadness n sorrow in play. But this kind of life n situation does bring the upmost of u n less but not least the true color or veryone surrounding u. Maybe what i’m facing now are something is which something u all may face in your coming future n some of u may have faced it. If u manage to learn from it, you may grow n evolve. For me, i’m just the old me having problem to evolve to better one. Nothing would come out of u without any effort. Is it worth it to put every upmost effort in what ever you do n sacrifising to do it?. Sometimes it’s worth it n sometimes not. Life is not always how u want it to be. In the end you have to adopt your self to it n find a better way to adopt to it in future. You may try to carve your own path n try to lead it all the way. You should stumble along the way. Yet how would you choose to stumble?

Guess i’m blabbering to much. It seems to resemble my old me when i haven’t know what U life is.

Take care then people n do cherish your time by studying hard n make sure you are carving the most best future for your self n do get ready to stumble hard on the way….Jaa’ mata’